some kind words to myself

this is more for me than for anyone else who might be reading this, so consider this an "evesdrop", if you will, of my mind.

*be proud. it's not easy pulling out all the stops and moving into an apartment all alone.

*your patience WILL pay off. you tried the slutty thing, and it was so overrated. being single for a few years will only make you a better partner for when the time is right. (and a gung ho partner!)

*don't forget to take care of yourself. who cares if you have to eat out less, or put a hold on the shopping. for once in your life get massages regularly. there is literally NO excuse not to, especially when you can't move your stress-filled body.

*your body is fine. you look hot. just look. wait, turn sideways. yeah, from that angle, you look hot.

*that weep-fest last night felt good. let's do that more often.

*you are a little bit selfish. it's a side effect of being single and childless. it really can't be helped. don't beat yourself up about it too much--just make sure you aren't neglecting your married and with-child friends.

*slow down---no need to see 2 friends a day, 7 days a week. there is time, and you live alone, and you WILL get your alone time. say no a little more often.

*be grateful when you get help. ask for what you need. just be straightforward and honest. no need to leave others guessing, or feel disappointed when they didn't read your mind .

*blow dry your hair more often, it looks good that way.

*you have a mailbox now. start writing letters again. that's part of the ban-selfishness clause.

*feed your soul. your job is not allowed to suck your life away. it's just a job. your LIFE is your life .