i have found myself being extra brave and careless lately. it is weird how people feed off of rejection and pain. or maybe that's just me...i guess when there is nothing left to lose, it doesn't hurt to push the envelope. except it does hurt a little.
as i went for a beach walk with a friend this morning, she challenged me with this question: where are you coming from, and where are you going?
these are hard questions for me to answer, or even examine. i guess i know where i am coming from, and where i am going is the mystery. the sun was bright today, warm and big, showing off after months of hybernating.
i am grateful for bursts of warmth, and tiny moments of hope. i look forward to taking myself on a date soon, and actually enjoying being alone.
i will leave you with the words my dear friend engraved on a bracelet for me:

Let me grow. Let me change. I am strong. I am loved. I am beautiful. Listen to me.