strong women

my mind is turning and spinning ideas and dreams and mustering bravery and guts and desire......sat around a circle with 10 women spanning the ages of 26-36, all sharing their deepest lessons learned, the wisdom they've acquired in their experienced lives. i shared my pieces, and then sat quietly and absorbed. it was kind of an unexpectedly profound evening for me. i have so much to learn. it inspired me to take bigger leaps of faith, bigger trips abroad, dream bigger dreams for my life. it taught me to be strong, be confident, don't compare, let go. i learned the benefits of trusting your gut, creating your own path, relinquishing control over the things we cannot control. married women, single women, women learning to "date" themselves, and do what they want for the first time in their lives. and the brave leaps they are taking!!
it occurs to me that i am this woman...single, free, capable of doing anything and going anywhere i want. and i am still fearful, still unsure if it's really what i want or just what someone else wants that i THINK i should want. still fearful.
these thoughts are buzzing, though...getting louder by the day. sometimes i can't contain my excitement in those moments when i realize just how much power and opportunity i actually have if i choose to take it.
i am so inspired, so jealous and envious. i am determined to turn that jealousy and envy into something beautiful and unique, something that is about me and not about anyone else. i can't say exactly what holds me back. or what keeps me here. many things and few things all at once. it's never that simple, but anything is always possible.....