today i want to be different. i want to start over, with a different childhood, a different family, a different direction and a different life. i want to be braver and bolder and less insecure. i want to feel secure in my relationships and more confident in my step. i want to be more careless and less emotional and i want to be loved from all around. i want to know i am loved and i want to feel sure i will not be left. i wish i were somebody else today.