bigger things

i took an hour to myself today at dusk and sat at one of my favorite beaches. the sky had an orangey bright tint to it as the sun was setting and there were still people playing in the water. hundreds of dogs ran around the leash-free zone, tongues lolling and tails wagging. i couldn't stop smiling. the fresh air. the sparkling water. it is so much bigger than me, everything is so much bigger than me. i need to put myself in big places to remember that there is so much more than what i happen to see and experience. my avocado and grapefruit lunch, wonderfully encouraging comments from my clients and a few long phone calls are more than enough for today. i will put a stop to my wandering and discontented mind for now, and just allow myself to feel ok, allow myself to smile and lay back in my pillows and just be ok with myself.