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don't have the energy for a long post at the moment, but felt like saying out loud:
i am good. really, i am. everything is ok. i heard a quote today, "to love oneself is the beginning of a lifelong romance". ok, fine, i give up the fight, i will stop resisting. insecurity is only attractive for so long, and then it just turns ugly. i'm really feeling pretty proud of myself lately, with some of the steps i'm making. it will be really fun to share my journey with a partner someday, and get to feel like all of this matters to someone.
i can't believe i have crossed the line, and am now seeing clients. it feels so lucky and terrifying and responsible of me. i love the process of getting to know another person, and now my task is trusting that others want to be known by me.
i went for a run tonight. that felt good. i'm always surprised that i can go weeks without running and then my body will get up and run 3 miles at once. good body, keep it up.
also, i got a new car. i bought it myself, and feel extra grown up. but mostly, i just feel super fly and totally smitten with the luxury of a new-ish car. i've forgotten the joy that comes from hearing music come out of the speakers. love it!