there are too many things on my mind these days that i've just given up trying to express them to anyone in particular. however i'm feeling the itch to write tonight, so let's see what happens...
i am missing the feelings you get when you're in a relationship with someone. this is not a desperate, pathetic post about being single and whining about it, by any means. but i've been thinking a lot about the way it feels when you are in love with someone. or even in like with someone with the possibility of love in the future. i remember certain things seeming brighter, lighter, lovelier, sunnier. i remember being excited to fall asleep next to this love, and waking up with it already on my mind. the movies and romantic comedies are onto something when they promote the shameless cliched love stories with sick and disturbingly predictable endings. it tugs at parts of us that long to be that much the center of someone else's world. to be seen and known, and feel pretty all the time.
i guess i am just appreciating the things that come with having a companion. i can appreciate the nervous sick feeling in the stomach that comes with anticipation of seeing each other, and the comfortable ease of spending saturday nights doing nothing but happy to do it together with legs entwined and the tv glowing. i remember my first kiss and wondering how it took me 22 years to discover that fun activity! and i remember thinking that exact same thing every time i experienced a first after that.
i don't miss the disappointments and dullness. the loneliness that you can sometimes feel even in a relationship. or the unhappy endings that look anything but those stupid romantic comedies. but i am so sure, so completely convinced, that everything is worth it, just to have someone to share your day with. and to get knots in your stomach in anticipation of seeing them...
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